Hey everyone!
So lately many things have been going on in my life that has taken a toll on me and my family. Especially this last week, I was just doing many things to distract my mind from the sadness I felt. Unfortunately, one of the things that has been a heartache for me and my family was that we had to give away our pitbull Pongo that we've had for four months. It's been a very difficult situation... I have to admit, when we got the pitbull as a puppy, I didn't know much about pitbulls and I was a little cautious around him. However, I decided to give the breed the benefit of the doubt and I was proven wrong. Pongo was the sweetest thing ever. He was nothing like the media portrays pitbulls to be. He filled a part that was missing in our household. He brought joy to everyone and even my parents. He thought of us as family.
In the end, I decided to put a post on facebook. Luckily, someone came up and said they wanted Pongo. The following week we went to go drop him off. It was hard. Really hard. Because Pongo knew what we were doing. He started whimpering and after we dropped him off we started crying. It was so painful to know he wouldn't live with us anymore. And it was painful seeing my family cry like that.
On the last day of Pongo at our house, our friend gave us permission to let his brother 'Gray' stay over the night so they can spend time with each other one last time. We played with them, took plenty of pictures and videos to remember our Pongo by...Pongo and Grey were so so SO happy. They just kept playing every single second they got. It was so hilarious and bittersweet watching them play like little children.
Now we feel an emptiness...
People might think that were exaggerating because were just giving away our dog but no. No because our pets are not just our pets. Because our pets are the ones who gives us comfort when we've had a bad day. Our pets help us relieve some symptoms of the disorders we have such as anxiety, panic and post traumatic stress. Are pets are everything to us.
Pongo still seems a little anxious but I know he's going to be happy. I'm also so happy we found him a good owner that is taking care of him. This guy also sends me videos and pictures of him almost daily and updates us on how he's doing. He also said we can go visit Pongo when we want to and he will bring him to the house when he can. My sister's anxiety has subsided, although it was terribly strong in the beginning of this week. I just hope that mine also subsides when time passes by. I can feel reassured that Pongo will always have us in the end.
So lately, I've been trying to distract myself from feeling sad. I told myself to appreciate the things around me so I can keep a positive mind through these bad times that has been hard to deal with.
I took a picture of this beautiful fountain at my school when I was deep in thought.
When I went to go see my therapist, I found a beautiful, long, and secret waterfall behind a building that I never knew about. I felt really calm when I stayed there a few minutes to think about things.
I also decided to put my energy into my studies and exercise. I had so much energy pent up that I had to find an outlet.
On Thursday, I decided to treat myself out. Just me by myself.
I must say, I wouldn't be healing right now if it weren't for my friends. Frankly, I didn't know I had so many friends that would be there for me. I didn't know how to show them how grateful I was because I felt like words weren't enough to express how I felt when they offered me advice. So I want to say thank you so so so so sooo much.
I also got a a package from my friend that lives in Vegas. TT^TT I can't believe she got me all these things!!! Thanks girl!~ You are like the best! I really needed this. Her letter made me smile so much and I can't wait to send her something back!
On Saturday, I invited some friends out to Honey Boba and 85 degrees for some pastries. They were some family friends and we enjoyed talking about dumb things while also laughing and having a good time. I saw that my sisters were enjoying themselves and my heart was able to get some peace. I was also ecstatic that they opened a faceshop next to the bakery about two weeks ago! Now I will have a place to go buy some beauty products~
And on Sunday, our family celebrated my half older brother's birthday. Because we have no family in our area, we decided to invite friends that we haven't seen for years! Everyone was growing up and it was so nostalgic talking about our memories when we were kids. I was so happy we were able to meet again and this time were going to stay in close contact with each other!
Favorably, I feel like God has been helping us get through many things. All these nice things that happened to us this week made me feel so grateful for other things I have or received. I just want everyone to know how thankful I am for their help in just being there for us. Their generosity made me cry.
Anyways I hope everyone has a productive monday and keep it strong all week! Bye bye~
